What I hate about UPLB Police F.
18 years na akong nakatira sa LB. Nakita ko lahat ng pagbabago at lahat ng sistema sa loob at labas ng campus. Especially sa mga guards and police. Actually ang mga UPF nito mga 2007 lang naman nagsulputan yan. Ang tingin ko lang naman sa kanila ay hanggang porma lang. tuck in UPF shirt and pants with matching shades then magbabantay lang sa mga kasulok sulukan ng UPLB. May isang beses nga, inabot kami ng barkada ko sa freedom park ng mga past 11, mga 2008 ata ito nangyari. so highschool pa ako nito at kasama ko nga barkada ko and nakasakay kami sa kotse ng isa kong kaklase. He was 16 that time so student’s license pa lang hawak niya then pinatigil kami and checked it tapos pinalampas kami. If I know bawal mag drive ang students lang ang hawak na walang kasamang non pro. eh siya lang ang may lisensya samin. Siguro sinuwerte lang talaga kami. Pero yung mga ibang pangyayari pa na hindi na kumalat sa buong UP, ayoko na rin magsabi ng mga pangyayari, anung mga nagawa nila? For me parang lang silang dekorasyon ng UP, parang isa sila sa mga banga. Yung mga naranasan at nakita kong ginagawa nila. Tulad nung isang beses, inilalakad ko ang husky ko sa campus tapos hinabol ako ng isang UPF para magbigay ng isang green na papel about sa rules about handling sa pet parang sinasabihan niya ako na bawal ilakad ang aso sa campus pero ang nakalagay lang naman sa papel ay pagtumae ang aso ikaw ang may responsibility na magtapon pero ang pinapaalis niya ako sa campus, hindi ko nalang pinansin kasi duh ang dami daming aso sa Fpark that time ako lang yung nilapitan mo ng ganun. Papansin si kuya. Isa pa, nagddrive ako papuntang CEAT. After ng St. Therese may blind curve kang madadaanan then after diretso tapos may intersection. Paright ay pisay tapos paleft ay CEAT. May malaking Stop sign sa gitna nun, kitang kita siya actually. Tapos may isang UPF pinatigil ako tapos sabi (NV) “Lagi po tayong titigil dito kasi po sabi dito ay magstop” basta ang labo ni kuya. MALAMANG nakikita ko yung stop. tsaka lahat naman ng sasakyan titigil/ magsslow down dun kasi paliko siya. Ewan ko kung bakit ganun sila, siguro wala silang magawa sa trabaho nila kundi pumorma lang.
Another experience, & THIS IS THE WORST. nangyari lang nitong JAN.22 (After lunch). Galing akong bahay pumunta ako sa Math Building para ihatid yung gf ko. Then after nun kailangan kong umuwi agad kasi may pipirmahan akong kontrata about sa insurance/savings shizz and kailangan kong umuwi kasi may oral interp performance ako sa major ko so kailangan kong magbihis ng smart casual. (that time kasi nakapambahay ako) I was driving my 6week car, wala pang plaka and nakaschedule that week para sa 1st change oil niya. Automatic yung car so habang naatras ako brake lang inaapakan ko, alalay lang. Pag ka reverse ko, palabas na ako sa parking lot ng Math building so nag full stop ako ishishift ko Reverse sa Drive. Nang pashift na ako, napatingin ako sa rear mirror at nakita ko may papaatras sa pwetan ko at ang bilis niya, bubusina sana ako. pag pindot ko ng busina sabay nagcrash ang pwetan niya sa pwet nung car. Hindi daw malakas ang impact pero dahil malambot ang body ng mga bagong labas ng mga ganung brang nayupi ang bumper ko. And yung isang kotse ay walang kadamage damage. umangat lang po ang brake light, isa lang. So i called my mom knowing na she bought that car for me. INAAMIN ko naman ang naging mali ko ay tinanggal namin ang pagkakabangga nung dalawa kasi nga nakakablock kami sa daan which is mali kasi isa siya sa evidence para malaman kung sino ang mali. so things happened. dumating ang UP police, inverstigator siya actually. habang pinag uusapan namin ang nangyari, medyo matanda na kasi ang mom ko so nagiging medyo insane siya kasi galit na galit siya sa nangyari. (You know moms.) Tapos may biglang babaeng nagwitness. sinasabi niya na parehas daw kaming may mali ( in english na formal) eh nung naatras naman ako wala siya mismo dun tapos lumabas lang siya sa sasakyan nung narinig niya ang busina ko. so moving on, parang naamaze sa kanya yung UPF kasi in english. both are liable blah blah blah. Tumahimik nalang muna ako kasi gawa ng nanay ko. and my gf ay tahimik lang din. somehow hindi ako makapagsalita that time kasi andaming pumasok sa isip ko. like nahihiya ako sa mom ko, kabagong bagong sasakyan nabangga. maybe yun lang. kaya hindi ako nakapagsalita at hinayaan ko ang mom ko. So yung UPF sulat lang ng sulat.
Here’s the thing yung sasakyan na nakabangga sa akin ay hindi nakapangalan sa kanila ang sasakyan. second is walang OR ang lisensya nung nakabangga and third iniinsist nung nakabangga na wala siyang kasalanan.
Wala ringinsurance ang kanilang kotse, eh sa amin meron. comprehensive. and yung father nung nakabangga gusto kami ang mag bayad ng damage which ABSOLUTELY WRONG. hindi porket may insurance kami, kami na ang magbabayad.
And now yung investigator, parang pinapanigan pa yung bumangga at mas naniniwala siya dun sa babaeng witness which I think na epal. Sabi ng gf ko, nung nakita niya yung banggaan nasa tamang lane ako, yung nakabangga yung kumain ng malaki. And nung bumaba ako at yung bumaba yung nakabangga I was VERY CONFIDENT na hindi ako may kasalanan kung bakit nagbanggaan but then the other driver is shaking. sabi ng gf ko. Well I believe na action speaks louder. Tapos yung UPF ayaw niyang ilagay sa police report yung issue na walang OR ang lisensya nung nakabangga pero ako meron. kasi baka fake kaya walang maipresent na OR.
I know my mistakes. Tinanggal ko yung kotse kasi nakakablock nga sa daanan and second hindi ko nasabi ang side ko kasi nahihiya ako sa mom ko, masyado akong natakot at nahiya kaya parang gusto ko siya yung magsalita which is mali. pati gf ko mali kasi hindi rin siya nakapagsalita. Second is naramdaman ko sa UPF na parang ang tingin niya sa akin ay bata. so parang joke lang ang tingin niya sa akin kasi mas pinapakinggan niya yung babaeng epal and the other driver.
NGAYON kaya ko po ginawa itong blog na to. NA ANG NANGYARI, IM VERY VERY CONFIDENT NA WALA AKONG KASALANAN SA AKSIDENTE.KAYA AKO NABANGGA KASI NAGBRAKE AKO para magshift sa drive AT HINDI NAKATINGIN YUNG BUMANGGA SA AKIN KASI ANG BILIS NG KANYANG DATING.
Baka isipin ng iba kaya hindi ako nagsalita sa mismong investigation kasi baka nag-isip pa ako nga kwento. NO. KAHIT IPA-LIE DETECTOR NIYO PA AKO. kahit anong test ang gawin niyo sa kin. kung anu yung totoong nangyari, yun lang ang sasabihin ko. IM STATING A FACT. hindi ako barbero. AAMININ KO NAMAN KUNG AKO YUNG MAY MALI PERO HINDI EH. SO HINDI MAKATARUNGAN KUNG KAMI ANG MAGBABAYAD NG DAMAGE.
And too bad, kuya pa naman ang driver. Hindi marunong mag admit ng mistake. siya pa yung nagmamatigas na wala siyang mali. eh siya nga tong nangatal sa aming dalawa.
Ginawa ko tong blog na ito para lang mailabas itong nararamdaman ko, kasi maya’t maya ako pinapaglitan ng mom ko bakit hindi daw ako nagsalita at galit ako kasi gusto nung nakabangga kami rin magbabayad ng damage nila. at galit ako kasi everyday ang dami kong dala mga gamit, mahirap ang schedule ko so kailangan ko ng dalhin ang lahat ng gamit ko sa umaga, lalo na yung instrumento ko kasi may gabi gabi akong rehersals kaya kailngan ko talaga ng kotse. Eh dahil may mga taong gigil sa accelerator at hindi natingin sa mirror ayun nandadamay ng clumsiness.
Mas matanda ka pa naman sa akin. nakakahiya.
Sana malaman mo kung gaano ka naging istorbo,abala at pabigat sa akin. Taga UP ka man. Hindi man kita kilala. Sana alam mo ang tama at mali. and I believe in Karma.
And sa investigator pati sa babaeng epal. Matanda na kayo. Be a professional.
And para sa mga makakabasa nito sana naintindihan niyo yung side ko. Masakit yung nangyari. Naging chaotic yung estado ng buhay ko dahil sa kanya. hindi na nawala ang high blood ng nanay ko kasi sinisisi niya ako bakit hindi ako nagsalita.
ETO ANG KATOTOHANAN.
-Kim Beltran
HEY TUMBLR!!! IM BAAAAAACK :DD
for the past 26 days, I don’t have time to blog and I’m feeling a bit lazy to open my laptop.
Many things happened. We had a concert with my harmonya brod and sis (Master and Rica) along with some professional musicians. Also my band (Lemon sharktooth) had a gig in pansol, Calamba. (we’re the main band)
Soooooo for the past 600 hours i’ve been rehearsing with them.
also still unconditionally loving and taking care of my girlfriend (going strong! :D)
And we’ll be having our 14th monthsary this coming Saturday (September 15)
so I’m still thinking what will I give to her :D
so yeaaaaah. that’s all.
just an update XD
”Catching Feelings” (My own version)
HAPPY 13th Month Anniversary baby! :DD
LYRICS:
“Catching Feelings”
The sun comes up on another morning
My mind never wakes up without you on it
And it’s crazy to me, I even see you in my dreams
Is this meant to be? Could this be happening to me?
We were best of friends since we were this high
So why do I get nervous every time you walk by
We would be on the phone all day
Now I can’t find the words to say to you
Now what am I supposed to do?
Could there be a possibility
I’m trying to say what’s up
‘Cause I’m made for you, and you for me
Baby now its time for us
Tryna keep it all together
But enough is enough
They say we’re too young for love
But I’m catching feelings (doo-do-doo-doo-do-do-do-do-do-do-doo)
Catching feelings (doo-do-doo-doo-do-do-do-do-do-do-doo)
In my head we’re already together
I’m good alone but with you I’m better
I just wanna see you smile
You say the word and I’ll be right there
I ain’t never going nowhere
I’m just tryna see where this can take us
‘Cause everything about you girl is so contagious
I think I finally got it done
Now all that’s left to do now is get out the mirror
And say it to her
August 12,2012. (Warning: This is an Emo blog)
I started my day, crying again.
Why? Since Friday (August 10,2012)I’m so emotionally down and physically deteriorating because my left ear is not working, I can’t hear and it hurts like HELL, I think I’m having an ear infection again ( i’ve been suffering from this sickness for 5 years i think). BUT I don’t want to go to the doctor because I’m thinking about the expenses. I am supposed to join my girlfriend’s hum2 field trip in Manila and it costs 1,200php. I’ve been keeping that money since Monday ( August 6,2012), the day that the hum2 students supposed to pay for their trip. I didn’t get to pay because I don’t have this f*cking insurance policy and I’m not enlisted to that subject, but my girlfriend’s recitation professor said that it is okay to join the trip even if you’re not enlisted AS LONG AS you have the money. So my girlfriend and I went to vega center to get the insurance thingy, knowing that the hum2 head professor which is also my adviser,Ma’am T. AREJOLA. will be accepting payments until 4pm. So by past 2pm we paid for my insurance policy but the BAD NEWS is the insurance policy card will be issued on the next day. I FEEL SO HOPELESS. And my girlfriend was like hoping that maybe i can still pay as soon as i get my f*cking card.
Moving on, I didn’t go back to the department anymore to ask if it’s okay to pay on the next day because of this card blah blah blah because before we knew that I need this insurance I talked to my adviser, Ma’am Arejola. I asked her regarding about the insurance. If it’s okay to pay for the trip and I will give the card as soon as I get it. She just smile ( a fake one) and turned her back. I think that’s a NO? I guess? What she did to me is very RUDE.
I will still try to get the card and pay on the next day BUT the classes and offices on that day (August 7,2012) was suspended because of this west/southwest monsoon. Until August 9,2012 the classes were still suspended. I was kinda pressured because I want to join the trip but I can’t find a way. I was hoping my girlfriend would help me on this, the fact that she is enlisted on that subject but NO. haha she’s kinda shy talking to professors so I understand.
My gf’s house is 10 kilometers away from our house so we didn’t get to see each other and have some quality time due to the suspension of classes. I’m used to see her everyday from Monday to Friday so I really missed her so much . And there is this one time I asked her if she misses me, she said no. I was like what the? Really? and she just smiled. I don’t know if she’s serious or what but it pinched my heart. She was saying that I was over reacting to miss her already that much. so yeah.
Thursday night, our university chancellor announced that our classes will resume on friday ( August 10,2012). I was happy because I’ll be able to see my girlfriend again and be with her all day.
FRIDAY MORNING. When I woke up, my left ear can’t hear anything and it hurts as if someone’s shoving a needle in my ear canal. As i said,I have been suffering from this sickness for over 5 years. And it occurs every three to four months. But this time the pain was excruciating. I tried to not to think about the pain so I could go to my class.
Now my girlfriend texted me about her dog. And she want to bring her dog to the vet hospital. So I told her Okay, wait for me, I’ll go to the hospital after my 7am class.
This is the second time that she will bring her dog to the vet. and here’s the thing I’m jealous of my gf’s dog. I know it’s a little bit childish but I don’t like her calling her dog the same endearment that she’s calling me. And she’s more affectionate to the dog. SOOO yeah BUT we already talked about it and she knows what i feel. There is this one time, she slept here in my house for 2 nights because her dog was on I.V. and my house is nearer to the vet than her house so if anything bad happens to the dog we could easily bring it to the hospital. While we were sleeping, my asthma attacked and she just said ” Bakit ka hinihingal!? TSK” ( Why are you panting!?!) then she just turned her back and faced to her dog. I was like wtf!?! but i get to control my asthma and went back to sleep.
OKAY. After my 7am class. I went to the vet hospital even if i still have an 8:30am class. Because I know my gf needs me,support,comfort,etc. and that time I feel so sick. I can’t hear and I feel that I have a fever but I ignored it.
When I saw her, she’s teary eyed blah blah… I really can’t control the ”jealousy” feeling. So I was quiet all the time and she was like ” I know you’re not okay, why are you not talking?” and I was like :|
After the check up, I drive her dog to their house and she was complaining about her headache. I told her that she needs to take a medicine. But she didn’t want to. so I told her. ” If your dog needs medical help you’re always ready to spend all your money but if it’s for you, you don’t want…blah blah.” blah blah blah…
But the thing is, ALL I AM ASKING FOR is fucking attention. >_> yes i’m an attention seeker but this time I really need it. I didn’t tell her that I’m sick because I don’t want her to think that I’m just saying that I’m sick because her dog is also sick so i could have this attention. BUT NO. That’s why i stayed quiet.
ALL I AM ASKING FOR IS HER attention, just a little bit of care. Plus the fact that I miss her so much and hoping this friday, we will be having quality time but unexpected things happened.
I didn’t get to tell her all of this. And on that night I had a high fever without anyone to assist me on my meds or whatever.
August 11,2012, Saturday, I didn’t get to rest well because i have students, the fact that my money for the trip is like less than 600?because of my expenses on food and gas on the past few days plus the fact that my mom is not giving me any allowance because there are no classes. so I have to use it. My girlfriend and I are communicating through text, I’m updating her about my body temperature and all.
AUGUST 12,2012. My mom promised to bring me to the doctor today but when I woke up it is past 10. We’re supposed to be in the hospital by 8am. I asked her why didn’t she wake me up. She told me the doctor is out and I asked her why didn’t she look for other ear doctor on other hospitals she told me that she has an appointment by 10:30. and it was a wedding ceremony of her friend.
she said that SHE MUST ATTEND THAT CEREMONY FIRST BEFORE SHE BRING ME TO THE HOSPITAL. (like fuck!?!?!)
I really can’t stand my ear anymore so I texted my girlfriend and hoping that she would accompany me to the hospital but she said that she can’t come with me because her dad won’t let her go out and maybe \she needs to take care of her dog, about applying meds to her dog blah blah…
so my last option was my orgmates in HARMONYA( it is a string ensemble, orchestra-like / music organization. I play the violin BTW)… fortunately one my orgmates, was availble and willing to accompany me and share money for my medical needs. (Because my money that time was not enough for medical check ups blah blah blah)
but UNFORTUNATELY, my ear doctor is OUT because it’s sunday. and that time I was really about to cry but then she said. “Come on! Let’s go to the E.R.” but I rejected her offer cause I know it will be expensive so we decided to go back to my house.
Our organization, Harmonya, on the other hand has an event on the same day and I was invited to play with them for the CELSO ESPEJO RONDALLA ( google them if you want —- they’re popular BTW)
We played 3 pieces for them… even if i’m not feeling well and im only using one ear, I’m proud to say that I’m honored to play for them and hear them play for us. For all the days that I feel so down,depressed and hopeless. The Celso Espejo Rondalla made me realize something.
Music was my life since I was 3 years old. Ive’ been playing the piano for 15 years, the violin for 11 years, the drums for 9 years and the guitar for 6 years. And now as a college student you have to take care of so many things especially your acads including also your love life ( if you have one). I realized that I’ve been pushing music away in a way that I don’t see how music is important to me, how music means to my life. While the Celso Espejo Rondalla is playing, on that moment I realized that even if I have this ear problem, and some issues about my ego-centrism shit. Music didn’t fail to make me smile and appreciate life. I realized that MUSIC will never leave your side whatever happens.
MUSIC is my first love. :D and they say first love never dies :)
(Sorry if my grammar is wrong. hahaha ONE TAKE SESSION)
♫ I drive on her streets ‘Cause she’s my companion
I walk through her hills ‘Cause she knows who I am
She sees my good deeds and She kisses me windy and
I never worry…now.♫
I don’t ever wanna feel Like I did that day
Take me to the place I love Take me all the way yeah yeah yeah!!
Under the bridge downtown is where I drew some blood
Under the bridge I could not get enough
Under the bridge Forgot about my love
Under the bridge I gave my life away yeah yeah yeah
Here I stay yeah yeah…
Your laugh, those eyes, your smile, your innocence…means everything to me but you don’t know, baby…
The way you, hold me means everything, to me, but you don’t know…
I don’t even know the reason why it came to be, that even though you’re with me… YOU FEEL SO FAR AWAY, I NEED YOU HERE… is it just me? ;(
I miss you doing this to me baby :(
Sometimes, I JUST WANNA DO THIS >_>
This is what I look like when I’m trying to hide my tears from my girlfriend from a heartbreaking reason. TRUE STORY
LEZZ DO THE F DANCE!!!
Because Chancy (UPLB) announced that our classes will resume tomorrow and my first class is 7 in the morning.